week 13 - idk tuesday

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[ On Tuesday, Yuno will be getting a pretty out of the blue message from Jack! He does actually have something in mind here that he wants to talk to her about, but. First thing's first: ]

Hey, Yuno. Sorry for uh

Well probably should've sent you another message sooner? After Saturday night. Buuuut kinda got distracted, honestly. This place is like equal parts HELLA boring and then I'm busy trying to figure stuff out. Crazy stuff.

How're your legs doing, kiddo?

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Hey, then just help me out for the sake of helping me out then? I mean, can't think of anything right now or anything, but. Don't need to think of it as being used, kiddo. I'd help you out just as much. :)

[ Whether that's actually true is up for debate, but Jack certainly believes that would be the case. At least Yuno gets a dad level emoticon for the efforts, so it's fine, totally. ]

Well. Yes and no? Which probably makes me a terrible person, but it's worth explaining here. Because I mean, I can't just say across the board "no" here. I'd be a huge hypocrite. Since uh yeah no further explanation really needed there.

But. I don't think you should die, no. You're still young, kiddo. I don't mean that in a condescending dickish way but when I was your age (ugh I'm sorry for the phrasing), I deeeeefinitely didn't even have an inkling of what my life was going to be, you know? Hell, I was only barely thinking about college. The idea that I'd work for Hyperion, work my way up, become CEO? No way. And then that I'd be trying to save some far off planet that I'd never even heard of at the time? Even crazier. So. There's definitely something to be said for living for the sake of living. There's always something to strive for, and things'll surprise you.

But on the other hand? I mean, if it wasn't obvious, I can't exactly tell someone that they can't die the way they want to. I know (knew?) I was gonna die because that's just the friggin nature of what I do. What I do, who I want to be, it means that I'm not exactly gonna die of old age. So. Knowing that? Feel like there's a certain way I want to go if I have to at all, you know? So I mean, first point still stands, and still hope you won't be coming to join us. But dying on your own terms isn't something I can exactly call stupid or anything.

But yeah not telling you to kill yourself either. Like, wow, that would be super shitty? I only tell people I super hate to go kill themselves.

[ jack don't just admit that ]