Oh I get what you mean. It's what started our relationship, but it doesn't affect it because we've moved beyond it. But really, Jack, I'm used to it. If you ever need me, I'm here. Being used is what I'm good at! I like helping people I like.
But thank you. That helps me understand the situation a lot more.
[ there was a genuine fear there, that jack wouldn't need her anymore and now that she wasn't needed she was going to be tossed aside and forgotten. but it's a fear he's successfully quelled, all the same. ]
I won't worry if you don't want me to. You'll always have the option to use my abilities, Jack. I'm not going away.
I
[ give her a moment. she's thinking about how to respond to this, going over her conversation with rhys, remembering the details. the things he told her. ]
Didn't realize that's what it was.. I was always ready to die. I knew I was going to die. If I could kill myself to make things happen better than I would. It's not a problem to me. I'm expendable... I can be thrown away at any time, but as long as I've made someone I love happy, it's worth it. So I guess, yeah. I am. I was willing to die to make sure the ship didn't get blown up, which Jason told me is assisted suicide? So I put two and two together after Rhys asked me if I'm suicidal. So I guess I am? It's strange to admit it. This is just how I am.
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Date: 2016-08-31 07:27 am (UTC)But thank you. That helps me understand the situation a lot more.
[ there was a genuine fear there, that jack wouldn't need her anymore and now that she wasn't needed she was going to be tossed aside and forgotten. but it's a fear he's successfully quelled, all the same. ]
I won't worry if you don't want me to. You'll always have the option to use my abilities, Jack. I'm not going away.
I
[ give her a moment. she's thinking about how to respond to this, going over her conversation with rhys, remembering the details. the things he told her. ]
Didn't realize that's what it was..
I was always ready to die. I knew I was going to die. If I could kill myself to make things happen better than I would. It's not a problem to me. I'm expendable... I can be thrown away at any time, but as long as I've made someone I love happy, it's worth it. So I guess, yeah. I am. I was willing to die to make sure the ship didn't get blown up, which Jason told me is assisted suicide? So I put two and two together after Rhys asked me if I'm suicidal. So I guess I am? It's strange to admit it. This is just how I am.
Are you going to tell me not to die, too?