This whole time.... I was someone's puppet and - you and everyone was the collateral damage.
[ Why? Why is she partnered with this responsibility? It's abuse. It's an abuse of knowledge. Hancock died because of it and she can't bring him back. It's her fault and every time she thinks of herself - thinks about what she truly is - she gets angry.
She watches as he struggles, helpless. Completely helpless to truly help him. She can't be there for him, not when she's not sure if she's able to trust herself. ]
I didn't tell anyone about Hancock. Even if he died when he was a suspect, I - I refused to tell anyone even if it would save his life. He trusted me with that.
[ He speaks and everything is like a dagger. She deserves it. She knows it's only the truth. ]
I'm glad you did. I'm glad - I'm ... [ She looks away, wiping away at her eyes. They succeeded but she's standing here. She's proof that there is still a murderer walking among them. ] I wish I would have been killed. You would have accomplished your goal. You would have been one step closer to leaving.
[ She didn't know. The entire trial she didn't know. The flurry of emotions had taken control of her - so many things crumbled at her feet. This was the only time since her awakening that she recalls someone looking at her like she was use to. Not out of fear. ]
I maimed you like - like a fucking animal. [ Wow three f-bombs, new record. She holds back a sob. ] There's no reason for you to put such faith in me. Without you to have stopped me, ... everyone could have been at risk. I don't know if they are still at risk.
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Date: 2016-07-18 02:51 pm (UTC)[ Why? Why is she partnered with this responsibility? It's abuse. It's an abuse of knowledge. Hancock died because of it and she can't bring him back. It's her fault and every time she thinks of herself - thinks about what she truly is - she gets angry.
She watches as he struggles, helpless. Completely helpless to truly help him. She can't be there for him, not when she's not sure if she's able to trust herself. ]
I didn't tell anyone about Hancock. Even if he died when he was a suspect, I - I refused to tell anyone even if it would save his life. He trusted me with that.
[ He speaks and everything is like a dagger. She deserves it. She knows it's only the truth. ]
I'm glad you did. I'm glad - I'm ... [ She looks away, wiping away at her eyes. They succeeded but she's standing here. She's proof that there is still a murderer walking among them. ] I wish I would have been killed. You would have accomplished your goal. You would have been one step closer to leaving.
[ She didn't know. The entire trial she didn't know. The flurry of emotions had taken control of her - so many things crumbled at her feet. This was the only time since her awakening that she recalls someone looking at her like she was use to. Not out of fear. ]
I maimed you like - like a fucking animal. [ Wow three f-bombs, new record. She holds back a sob. ] There's no reason for you to put such faith in me. Without you to have stopped me, ... everyone could have been at risk. I don't know if they are still at risk.
[ Another soft sob. ]
Thank you.