ECHO DIARY ENTRY #5: THIRTEEN WEEKS AFTER THE FALL OF HELIOS
I almost forgot about this thing again.
[ this time, rhys is using his new arm. he's in his apartment, on the balcony outside and it's the middle of the night. he's in that hyperion sweater from before and a pair of blue boxers, asymmeterical of course. in his mouth is a lit cigarrette and he's taking a drag from it while he waits for the video to start up before blowing the smoke and holding it between the fingers of his flesh hand.
he's... not looking so good, actually. kind of pale, clammy. upset. ]
I have nightmares now which -- which is bullshit, you know? I never had nightmares before. After Jack and his... everything, I can't stop dreaming about it. [ he laughs and it's sad, broken. he takes another drag of his cigarette. ] He was my hero and we were supposed to be partners and one moment, everything's fine? It's so fine. Why wouldn't I upload him into Helios then? Of course I would. I'd do anything for him. So, I fucking put him in Helios and he looks so damn proud and then -- and then he was trying to kill me. Take my body as his fucking flesh suit. What kind of insanity is that? I'd, I'd like... rot. I could've put him in a robot! That would've been fine! Not even a Claptrap but like, a Loader Bot or something cool like that. Hell, I'd build it myself! He knew I was good with cybernetics! I don't fucking use these things for my health, fucking asshole. But noooo, he wanted my body. Mine. And he killed Dumpy for it too. Fucking bullshit.
[ he huffs and the video jerks, as he shifts to sit down on one of the chairs on his balcony. his leg taps up and down in an anxious movement and he tips the ash off his cigarette with a quick flick of the finger. ]
Is there... is there something about me? I have to ask. Is there something wrong? Something that makes people I trust want to betray me? The people I love? Vaughn agreed to betray me -- which, like, I know he wouldn't but it still stung. Yvette actually did betray me. Fiona abandoned me. Jack tried to kill me. Is there something wrong with me? Well, h-haha, fuck! Jokes on them because they're all dead and I'm not. So fuck them!
[ he freezes for a moment before pressing his face to his hands suddenly and starting to sob. the video turns black but there's the soft sounds of rhys crying for a few minutes until it finally just shuts off. ]
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I almost forgot about this thing again.
[ this time, rhys is using his new arm. he's in his apartment, on the balcony outside and it's the middle of the night. he's in that hyperion sweater from before and a pair of blue boxers, asymmeterical of course. in his mouth is a lit cigarrette and he's taking a drag from it while he waits for the video to start up before blowing the smoke and holding it between the fingers of his flesh hand.
he's... not looking so good, actually. kind of pale, clammy. upset. ]
I have nightmares now which -- which is bullshit, you know? I never had nightmares before. After Jack and his... everything, I can't stop dreaming about it. [ he laughs and it's sad, broken. he takes another drag of his cigarette. ] He was my hero and we were supposed to be partners and one moment, everything's fine? It's so fine. Why wouldn't I upload him into Helios then? Of course I would. I'd do anything for him. So, I fucking put him in Helios and he looks so damn proud and then -- and then he was trying to kill me. Take my body as his fucking flesh suit. What kind of insanity is that? I'd, I'd like... rot. I could've put him in a robot! That would've been fine! Not even a Claptrap but like, a Loader Bot or something cool like that. Hell, I'd build it myself! He knew I was good with cybernetics! I don't fucking use these things for my health, fucking asshole. But noooo, he wanted my body. Mine. And he killed Dumpy for it too. Fucking bullshit.
[ he huffs and the video jerks, as he shifts to sit down on one of the chairs on his balcony. his leg taps up and down in an anxious movement and he tips the ash off his cigarette with a quick flick of the finger. ]
Is there... is there something about me? I have to ask. Is there something wrong? Something that makes people I trust want to betray me? The people I love? Vaughn agreed to betray me -- which, like, I know he wouldn't but it still stung. Yvette actually did betray me. Fiona abandoned me. Jack tried to kill me. Is there something wrong with me? Well, h-haha, fuck! Jokes on them because they're all dead and I'm not. So fuck them!
[ he freezes for a moment before pressing his face to his hands suddenly and starting to sob. the video turns black but there's the soft sounds of rhys crying for a few minutes until it finally just shuts off. ]